Well, my life has changed drastically in the past two years. I would have to say they have been hardest. But also have been the most encouraging! Finding out who God is in my life.. Through my heartache God became completely all that I need.
I've learned throughout my life people are a huge disappoinment (including myself) especially the ones who are close to you. But God never disappoints. it's so encouraging, yet so hard to grasp sometimes when you wanna rely on people that can't be there.
I am the girl who went through stuff that I would never wish upon the person I like the least.
But, I am also the girl who has a God who has fully mended her broken heart.
last year God spoke to me something which was: 'I can mend what has been broken, & save what seems to be lost.' & for a year, I have pondered and wondered what that was suppose to mean. Believe me, I thought of everything in the book. But the one thing that I didn't think of was actually the one thing that God was trying to show me.
He didn't mean he was gonna bring old things back in my life. He meant He was gonna mend MY broken heart, & was gonna fix all MY hurts and turn it around as if I never had them to begin with. if you asked me a year ago if i thought my heartache and pain would ever be gone. I would have honestly probably answered with a big fat NO! But it's incredible to be able to look back & look to where I am now. I can honestly say I am so very thankful. God is incredible. As I wrap this up, I wanna add as a testimony in my life through my heartache I sought God more then I have ever have in my life, and through that God became more real in my life. He never failed, when I was down on my knees arguing with Him, He still loved me & still held me dear to His heart. Everytime I was down and crying I always went & read this and found encoragement through this prayer:
"My faith is small, but I will be healed when I touch the wounds in Your hands. I have fallen so many times but You always rescue me with a mighty hand. I was worthless but I am now the crown upon Your head. Although I am a failure I am still the apple of Your eye. You choose the foolish, so choose me. You use the powerless, so use me. You call those who are counted as nothing, so call me, Lord. Use my voice to declare hope. use my eyes to search out the lost. Use my life to beat the darkness. And use it as an instrument of life. No one is too small for You. Nothing is too hard for You. You are the God of the miraculous & the God of all hope. Your wings will give flight to my dreams. Your promise will be a rock upon which I stand. I will not be shaken, I wil not be moved. With You i can do anything. In Jesus' name, amen."
be encouraged. Our God is greater.
if you made it through reading this blog I applaud you. because I don't blame anyone if they don't read the whole thing it's pretty long.. well God Bless. :)
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